Feels so strange...

I've got my own life principle: If there's an opportunity explore it to the maximum! As if not.. you lose it forever...
Like that i'm for a very long time...
i've been doing so many things to acttually get what i wanted... I GOT that.. but... looks like i'm not mature enough to decide. I'm not that strong as i pretend...

It was a complete mess arround my decision: shall i go or shall i not!

When you realise that 'coz of your decision the whole future life is about to change! And you never know what might be afterwords. Like it was one year ago...
I gues i just got a bit afraid as that was a bit difficult for me to actually digest all that previous experience.

Now when there's a final NO... i don't want to regret about having done something or not having done!

My God.. i hope all is for good... All is for good...

God bless me...